I'm not alive, I'm just existing.
Today, I realized how dumb l am. I sit behind my computer screen and talk all sorts of crap about people because I'm insecure. For example, there's this girl named Riley and I taunt her because I know she can't defend herself. I have a lot of "net friends" so of course they side with me and we sit there and put her down for no reason. I made a new account and she wrote me in private. She said there's this girl who makes me cry every time I come on here, all she ever does is put me down, her and her friends. And l didn't do anything to her, she calls me whores and stuff, and I'm not. just wanted to be friends and she makes fun of me or it. I felt like crap, because I never knew I had such an effect on her. I started apologizing and she asked me why was I sorry? All I could say was for everything she put your through. Too embarrassed to admit that it was me who was treating her that way. God, I'm so stupid! I feel so dumb! How could I inflict the pain that was inflicted on me? I didn't like it, so who am I to do it to someone else? I think I'll e-mail her this...might make me feel better.
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